Soo Depressed

I woke up early today, a first for me as weekends usually mean a lay-in till 10. Hubby as usual was impressed. Since DH also goes to the gym every weekend, he was thrilled that this morning it was me who was pushing him to get out of the bed soon.

Just before we left for the gym, DH and I had a minor, a very minor argument. He wanted me to take my whole gear - my whole bathroom essentials and a change of clothes. I for one hate taking shower in gyms 'cause I love my shower rituals at home and don't like to do basically lug all my things in a bag, considering that we were going to the gym by bus. DH, on the other hand says that we are paying for the shower facilities as well and that we should make good use of it!!

Anyway that soon resolved and I made my way home after completing my gym session.

Back home, when I got into the shower, I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks. I had kept my emotions in check for so long that now I had to just let go. No, it was not due to our argument, rather it was due to my current job situation. I don't want to be someone who is responsible for just a piddly 25% of the total departmental business. That's just too small for me and now I really feel like I am being demoted. This fact along with absolutely no understanding from DH's part got me into this soggy stage.

With no one to see me or even hear me I cried my guts out in the shower. And while it felt good to just let go, I got out of the shower with a red nose and bloodshot eyes.

Once DH got back home (He was still in the gym while I left early) it seemed like a cold war was brewing between us. He, I guess, was still holding against me the morning's argument. And then, just like that we stopped talking. Till about 2:00. Then I went to have a chat with him and he seemed closed like a vault.

So here I am, letting some time pass...before I decide to go and resolve this with DH once and for all.....