Just few steps further

I was going to write a few posts and keep it for later. But then I just thought of this and had to post it today itself. It’s one of those profound things in life and needs a revelation as soon as possible.

I always blame circumstances – for not being great in studies, for not being successful at my first marriage, for not being a proper mother despite having a beautiful son (my son lives with his father in Dubai), for not progressing too far with my career etc etc.

OK so all this while in the UK I have been driving hatch back cars and I am quite comfortable with parking a hatch back car in small parking spaces. But when it comes to reverse parking I have my doubts and depending on the size of the car I judge whether I can should park in that small space or not. As you all know, very recently my company blessed me with a beautiful Volvo S40 and because I am so used to small cars, this seems like a mother of a vehicle to be comfortable with reverse parking.

Anyway yesterday I got back from work only by 6:30pm and I know that by that time, all the parking spaces in front of my house would be taken up. So as soon as I reached my house lane, I parked my car in the first available comfortable parking space. Then I walked to my house not checking whether there were any other parking spaces right next to our house. But once I was in our bedroom, I slowly drew the curtains and lo what do I see? A grand parking space right opposite our front garden!!

Now this incident got me thinking. Do I always do this sort of thing? Stop just a few steps short of getting that perfect place? Have I always been blaming circumstances instead of blaming my short comings? Has God always given me the opportunities and I have been conveniently blind to it? Do I not look around properly?

For starters, I am going to drive down further than the first available comfortable parking space. And then, in life, generally speaking I am going to push myself a bit out of my comfort zone. Now that sounds fair enough…