Damn, it won't go away

Today I tried to get over my wretched thoughts by doing some work or the other.

The only time that I am at peace with myself is when I am at work – there I am the Queen of all tasks, I am the maker of my destiny and I am at peace with myself. If I let myself go for a second and I mean even for a second, I can feel my eyes well up with tears and then there is no bringing me back to reality. If this is indeed some sort of clinical depression then I am surely going through the worst part of it.

There is an emptiness within me that gnaws at my every thought. I feel so hollow and I don’t think that I can put up with this feeling for long. I need to find some light somewhere and follow it, or else I will fall, will fall, will fall.........