To MBA or Not

This is a deep look within myself to find out whether I want to do this course or not, to find that ray of determination.

Why I Do I Want To Do This MBA?

- I have already paid up £6,250 towards the fees, so might as well complete the course. That’s the frugal me talking.
- The modules looked tough initially, but the odd month that I did concentrate on my lessons, I found it to be do-able. This is me trying to be intellectual.
- This is my last chance at being a post-graduate. Yes, I have this thing about being a post-graduate person. Graduation is the new kindergarten!! This is the Mallu in me that’s talking
- Once I have an MBA degree from Imperial and get a British passport next year, I could easily go back to Dubai and make pots of money there!! (No please, I do not see myself as a white person trapped in a brown body and faking the Brit accent!!)
- I would be the first person from both my father’s and mother’s side to have done a professional course abroad.
- I can have the satisfaction of having dreamed of studying well beyond my 30s and actually achieving that goal. This will give me a much needed sense of accomplishment.

Why Do I Not Want To Do This Course?

- I don’t want to fail in any of my exams. I have always been a class topper, a merit holder to be precise. And because I am finding the Economics and Statistics modules quite difficult I am nervous about sitting for an exam without being very well prepared.
- OK so I have paid up for four modules; but I still have to pay for the rest five by next year. Do I really want to spend more money when I do not know whether I have the balls to complete the entire course?
- Other than DH, no one really gives a damn whether I do this course or not.
- I am lazy and a procrastinator. I do not have the dedication to be serious about this course and complete it.
- There is a voice that asks me whether I am doing this for myself or whether I am doing it to show off to others (not that anyone actually gets impressed with a person who has done an MBA, but it definitely paves the way when it is from Imperial!!)
- I have been working for thirteen years now and have an impressive CV due to my tenure at two large multinational companies. Do I really need an MBA at this stage to perk up my CV?

Bottom Line: Some times you do things not because they sound logical or even right. You do it just because you want to. And I am going to do it only because I believe those three alphabets will give me some sort of self worth.