Random Musing

Do I have confidence in myself? I believe I do. But then I can’t say much when I am being compared with the rest from my class of ‘92. I believe that I work for a good company, hold a good position and earn just enough money to keep me happy. Firstly I do not like comparing myself to someone else, secondly I don’t believe position and money are exactly good reference points for comparison. We all take what life gives us and try to make the best of it. It’s not as if we can plan our lives or career or even family for that matter; like Forrest Gump’s mama says – life is a box of chocolates.

When I talk to my ex-classmates the first question that pops out is what is he / she doing? Then - which company is she / he working for? How come we never start with questions like – where is this person? Is he / she married and how many kids to they have? Etc etc. Maybe questions about marriage and kids seem more personal in context and asking about one’s work appears sort of safe. Whatever it is I am not liking the way conversations go and I am equally guilty of it.

If status / position is a sore thumb, so are the questions on the personal front. When did you get married – uh four years back. Do you have kids – yeah a 14 yr old son. How come you got married just 4 years back and already have a 14 year old son? Well if you are bright enough – you will realise that it is my second marriage. Where is your son now? – living with my parents. How come? – ‘cause we are waiting for his UK visa to be processed. Why isn’t he with you already? – because he was living with his father in Dubai before this. Why was he living with his father? – ok let’s not even get into this....

Ah well by this time I almost wish I had not met my ex-classmate. Sorry but could we talk about something else. – weather, movies, whatever. I already look disinterested. OK so I am anti-social and prefer to be that way. Sorry folks – I like to keep things about myself to myself.