I am trying to find the right words to begin this story or episode or phase or whatever you can call it.
You are about to touch 40.
You have a 15 yr old son.
You have been with your husband for a long time.
And you have never touched contraceptives in the past 15 years.
So what should you feel when the doctor at A&E tells you that you have terrible stomach and leg cramps because you are pregnant?
When the news is given to you, you have your sister-in-law sitting right beside you and you both squeal out “Oh my God!!!” She looks happy and you do not know how to react. The doctor asks you “Is this a planned pregnancy?” and you say “No” and then he adds “Is this a wanted pregnancy?” and then without a moment’s doubt you say “Hell yes.” For sure yes.....
You are sent for various scans and just when you get around to digesting the fact that this is indeed a good news, you are told that the scan reveals this to be an ectopic pregnancy and you need to have an emergency operation within 24 hrs to get your right side fallopian tube removed along with the 6 weeks (6mm) foetus.
I am not sure what to think of this. Why did this happen to me? What was the universe trying to tell me. As I sit here at home looking at the stitches on my tummy after the deed has been done, I wonder....
And for the first time in 15 years, I want to have a baby again.....
You are about to touch 40.
You have a 15 yr old son.
You have been with your husband for a long time.
And you have never touched contraceptives in the past 15 years.
So what should you feel when the doctor at A&E tells you that you have terrible stomach and leg cramps because you are pregnant?
When the news is given to you, you have your sister-in-law sitting right beside you and you both squeal out “Oh my God!!!” She looks happy and you do not know how to react. The doctor asks you “Is this a planned pregnancy?” and you say “No” and then he adds “Is this a wanted pregnancy?” and then without a moment’s doubt you say “Hell yes.” For sure yes.....
You are sent for various scans and just when you get around to digesting the fact that this is indeed a good news, you are told that the scan reveals this to be an ectopic pregnancy and you need to have an emergency operation within 24 hrs to get your right side fallopian tube removed along with the 6 weeks (6mm) foetus.
I am not sure what to think of this. Why did this happen to me? What was the universe trying to tell me. As I sit here at home looking at the stitches on my tummy after the deed has been done, I wonder....
And for the first time in 15 years, I want to have a baby again.....
7 comments:
That terrible news. But from someone who has been there and done that, there is always a silver lining.
Chinty, I don't know what to tell you...but as someone who might never have a biological baby I just want to hug you and tell you "you will get over this pain some day. until then, hang in there"
Dear Anonymous (both of you!),
Thanks for your messages.
Not sure what more to add really.
It lived in my mind for exactly half an hour - from the moment I was told of its existence to the news that it had to be removed.
How can I miss something that lasted so short?
Chinty
Oh Chinty, I'm sorry.
Oh Chinty! I am so sorry to hear your news.
I'm sorry. You take good care
I'm so sorry. *hugs*
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