I am the way I am…

Call me whatever you like – ass-licker, spineless, insecure whatever, but it is very important for me to be in the good books of my boss. No, I do not say yes when I mean no and I certainly do not keep my mouth shut when I am required to give my opinion. So where does the spineless bit come in?

Well, I work like a dog and do not ask for much in return (neither a promotion, nor a salary hike). I can complain till the cows come home, but with age have come to realise that if something is due to you, you need not make a big hoo haa in order to get it. DH says that only a crying baby gets milk (I think that’s a direct translation from a Malayalam saying).

It is also quite vital that I have a boss that I can look up to. She should be a go-getter, a pusher and an aggressive bitch. She should be everything that I am not….
Unfortunately in my current job, my boss is a much liked nice lady. And that depresses me so much ‘cause my role model is not docile at all.
I am now in a transitional stage at work, am moving from account management to demand and promotional planning. And while I did not have the time to prove myself at the last position, I am keeping my fingers crossed that the new one will be better than the last.

I believe God (yes, yes, yes I believe in him / her) gives everyone a quota – to eat, drink, sleep, sleep around, work, be arrogant, active etc and if you finish your quota at the initial stages of your life you do not have much left towards the end of it. So here I am after having been arrogant, stubborn and impatient during all my adult life, now I can just sit back and see things go by, even my ambitions…

No, nothing really pisses me off, I am way beyond that now….

PS: I am at work now and sitting directly opposite my boss. And while we both have our laptops in front of us, she is working hard and I am hardly working (actually writing a post for my blog!). …Maybe that’s why she is the boss and I am not…