Just being vague

To know that I am capable of writing just about two posts a month puts me to shame. Hell I am the dedicated, organised, cold bitch and nothing is impossible in my books. So how come the whole world can post every week if not daily and I can cough up just two in a whole month?

Well reality is finally opening its doors to me. Actually no; it has been trying to open its doors ever since I turned 35. But the stubborn me just keep turning a blind eye. I guess age does that to you. You wake up one day and you know exactly what your limitations and downfalls are. You know that you can give yourself 100 marks for trying but not as much for accomplishing. The intentions are always fantastic, but life somehow stops short of that final goal.

Hell I wake up every day at five in the morning – squeeze in an hour of gym and two hours of studies, cook food and even find time to dab on some make-up and all this without counting the 10 hours at work. So where exactly am I going wrong? When can I find that uninterrupted hour to write a post for my beloved blog? Am I expecting too much out of myself?

Just like everything in my life that gets jotted into a to-do list, I carry this cute little moleskin book in my handbag for those out-of-the-blue thoughts that just cry to get into my blog. And believe you me I do pen occasionally the odd thoughts. Whatever my life is, it is never boring. There’s always an argument with a parent, silence with DH or worry about my son; at the work front there are n number of bloopers, heated exchange of words with colleagues and attempts of diplomacy with the boss; sleepless nights over my exams in May etc etc. Ah well life is indeed colourful and interesting. And I am making grand memories just by living it all out

So what exactly am I complaining about? Ah yes....about not putting everything into words over here. In the greater scheme of things it seems so trivial that my idea of discipline rests in updating my blog daily. Pity indeed!!

On a side note: I WILL UPDATE MY BLOG REGULARLY.